my eyes blinking through the tide

Excessive red lips,

Tight black dress,
Meaningless words,
Men approach me, no less.

A new chapter begins,
Can I escape the old me?
One thing’s for sure,
Our past will always be.

Tell me, baby,
On these rainy nights,
Do you still miss me, just for a while?
Do you miss the red that stained your neck,
Or the scent of wood that lingered, wild?
The way I lit your cigarettes,
Or replay the song I sang with every breath?

Because even today,
I still wear that bracelet,
As deep as my love for you was,
Still teary when I drive by our spots,
Where we kissed and danced, so free.

Did I make you happy, my dear?
Cause you were my first, my pain, my fear,
My escape from reality,
Oh, honey, I’ll carry these memories,
Till my last breath, I’ll hold them near,
The warmth of your breath, your voice so clear,
When the sun rose, you whispered in my ear.
Oh, honey,
Oh, honey,
I want to hold you like this forever, endlessly.

I no longer hope for your return,
Deep in my heart,
I know the liar in me
Deserves every bit of pain I’ve earned.
But I’ll keep you, forever locked inside,
My beautiful eyes blinking through the tide,
The taste of cigarettes, your tenderness,
In my heart, your love’s still my caress.