the purest me

 

I miss you so much I can’t breathe.

That night when I came to you, half of me seethed.
You held me close like there was no tomorrow.
Thao Dien’s lights cut through our borrowed sorrow.
It’s like the world left only two of us.
Only the two of us.

Oh, the way I love.
Your tender voice, your lips, your touch.
The way you light our cigarettes.
Bury your head in me, baby, no regrets.

Tell me, honey, did it hurt you the way it burned me?
If you had known all these nights, these memories turned me.
I knew I am the worst, but did I deserve this pain of life and love?
Tell me, honey, when will I ever be free?

Fuck those empty “time heals.”
Since I still cry like a baby when I drive past our reels.
I still ask God why He crafted me with this curse.
All I want was just to be loved in reverse.
All I wanted
was just a bit of your love haunted.

To be honest, honey,
I was too, too lonely.
The pain has been carving me for centuries only.
I was too just a rat from a dumpster.
Chasing a far-fetched dream like the other cluster.
I was too nothing but a liar.
Trying to cover my pain with a well-made fire.

But one thing I knew for sure.
My love for you was pure.
You have met the purest me.
You have tasted the purest me.
You were the last person I loved on this Earth.
I’ve given you every single piece of my worth.
Every single piece of purest me.

Tell me, honey, did it hurt you the way it burned me?
If you had known all these nights, these memories turned me.
I knew I am the worst, but did I deserve this pain of life and love?
Tell me, honey, when will I ever be free?

Fuck those empty “time heals.”
Since I still cry like a baby when I drive past our reels.
I still ask God why He crafted me with this curse.
All I want was just to be loved in reverse.
All I wanted
was just a bit of your love haunted.