if you had known

 

Honey, if you had known,

The weight I carried, all alone,
That night I came with teary eyes,
And found your warmth beneath the skies.
How the sun shone in that dark room,
Where love blossomed, dispelling gloom.

Honey, if you had known,
The truths beneath this heart I’ve sewn,
The masks I wore, the lies I told,
Would you have still let me unfold?
Would you have held me close and tight,
Even when darkness stole the light?

Honey, if you had known,
That our ending was carved in stone,
If it wasn’t you, then it was me,
Running from all the lies I'd be.
I’d escape the weight of broken dreams,
Drowning in my silent screams.

Honey, even for a second,
I wanted you, no need for protection,
To love me whole, in the now and here,
To share one last smoke, wipe every tear.
Before the night slipped into day,
Before the truth could slip away.

Honey, if you had known,
The day you left, I was all alone,
Tears ran as I raced the train,
Five minutes late to end the pain.
Your voice haunted the air that night,
As I ran away from all we’d fight.

Honey, I have no place to roam,
No brothers, no mothers, no welcome home,
Just fragile bones, a heart so torn,
A soul alone, still bruised and worn.
All I had was you, that’s true,
All I had was you.

Honey, if you had known,
How my heart to you has always flown,
How your texts lit up my soul,
But I had to hold back, to control,
Fix the wreck that I’d become,
Fighting battles, beyond this one.

Honey, if you had known,
How grateful I was, how deeply shown,
Even when the sheets were soaked in tears,
And blood mixed with all my fears,
I’d trade my life for just one more,
To taste that moment, to feel the core.

Honey, when you look at the moon,
Know it’s me, whispering in tune,
Praying for your peace, your cheer,
For your joy to grow, year after year.

My soul flows everywhere you go 

My soul swallows all of your sorrow