last goodbye of the old me

So fucking exhausted, tired each time I wake,

I need my mental health back,
But it’s lost somewhere in the wreckage you left.
After you left, my nightmares returned,
Haunting me night after night—
Every shadow, every whisper of pain.

Every touch of yours still lingers on my skin,
You own my heart and soul,
Even though I know I was just a pawn to you.
You wanted me gone quickly,
So you could be free,
But I tried to protect the innocence I had,
Until you shattered it,
And blamed me for your fears,
For your insecurities.

I’ll never know the truth—
Maybe you just didn’t love me.
Or maybe, I was the last chance
To say goodbye to the me who loved too deeply,
To the me who couldn’t control emotions,
To the me who drowned in your masculinity.

Goodbye to the old me—
The last night together,
The last touch of what I once was,
As the sun rises,
And you leave me with only fragments
Of the old me.