will I survive tomorrow mama

do you really hate me that much?

No soul left in me, still trapped in your clutch.
Why’d you kill my hope, why the sacrifice?
Why can’t you let me go, set me free from this vice?

I’m the worst of the worst, but a monster, am I?
Go to bed, can’t breathe, mama, I’m dying inside.
My body’s in pain, mama, aching all through,
I don’t mean to hurt, mama, but what can I do?

It’s all at once, mama, crashing on me,
Can’t catch my breath, mama, I’m begging, you see.
What’d I do to deserve this, this hell every month?
Feel like I’m cursed, mama, sinking, I’m sunk.

I’m the worst thing you’ve known, mama, I know it’s true,
But all I want’s to make you proud, to shine for you.
Should I let the night take me, just swallow me whole?
I’m lost, mama, drowning, no grip on my soul.

Pills and cigarettes, mama, I’m loading up still,
Not ‘cause it’s cool, mama, but stress that could kill.
I’m not myself, mama, acting out, I’m a stranger,
This ain’t the real me, mama, I’m lost in the danger.

Why, mama, why me? No tears left to cry,
I’m drained, mama, hollow, just wanting to die.
Can you come here, mama, sit with me now?
Everyone hates me, mama, I’m breaking, and how.

I hate myself more, mama, can I be real?
So fucking tired, mama, no strength left to feel.
I wanna end it all, mama, just make it all cease,
Fucking end everything, mama, let me find peace.

Can’t forget your face, mama, that look in your eyes,
When that monster struck you, mama, I heard your cries.
He threw that chair, mama, I’d eat him alive,
I’d kill for you, mama, just to see you thrive.

I’m the worst, mama, but I swear I wanna be good,
Wanna make you proud, mama, like a daughter should.
I’m trying, mama, fighting, though I’m falling apart,
Be good with you, mama, forever, my heart.

I couldn't help thinking about it mama

Am I a monster mama

in this city mama

how can I survive mama

can you let me be mama

will I survive tomorrow mama

will I wake up tomorrow mama

tell me mama

how much more sorrow can I take mama

how much more can I take mama