femmefatale's mask

 

Why does fate keep me bound this way?

I love men, yet love always betrays me.

What I cherish never loves me back fully.

Told myself a million times: stop feeling this.

Crime shows dull the pain deep within me.

That night, you fled from your hidden lies.

Gifts and love prepared, I felt truly alive.

Pain returns, I ignored signs I should’ve seen.

Your sweet voice kept me awake all night.

Drunk on you, I came alive once more.

Wished I could love for a better life’s promise,

But I can’t, baby, I truly can’t do it.

Nights alone, I fight to keep myself alive.

Why does God seem to hate me so much?

This femme fatale mask hides my aching heart.

Deep inside, I blame myself for this loneliness.

No one to trust, I’m unraveling, undone completely.

I need someone to let me be me.

The woman, the weak, the real me unveiled.

Drunk in pain, I seek to wake again.

Enlightened, I’ll see through your eyes’ veiled truth.

Not saying you’re the villain in this story,

I’m just a cover, hiding fear and hurt.

One question burns, answer me with truth now:

Were you ever happy being with me then?