27/5/2025

 

Deleted, you sent, now I’m hunting for it again,

Why can’t my heart just let it go, stuck in this damn game?
You left with a line like it meant nothing at all,
Now I’m trapped in the silence, waiting for your call.

Did you even feel it that night, or was it just me?
If I’d been a little sluttier, would you have stayed and let me be?
Inside, I’m falling apart, don’t know how to stand,
I know I shouldn’t feel this way, but I’m slipping through the sand.

God’s got a way to twist and break my heart,
Gives me a taste of joy, then tears it apart.
You never knew my real name,
I’ll never know your real game.
In the end, I’m the one to blame—
Yeah, baby, I’m the one to blame.

In my mind, we’re still stuck in some divine relation,
Built on lies, both of us drowning in our own temptation.
Call me up just one night, make it feel real,
I’ll be your slave, your Cleopatra, and you my Knight for the steal.

Funny how my heart can’t act out of its own sick interest,
I love the pain, the hurt—it’s what keeps me obsessed.
I knew exactly how it would go, what it’d be,
But why the hell do I keep slamming my head into the worst best for me?

Benny says I should hang on, that I deserve the best,
But I’m not sure I do, maybe I’m just another mess.
I’ll work 'til my body can’t stand, can’t breathe,
Write 'til there’s nothing left in me to grieve.
Maybe in another life, just maybe,
I’ll have a heart that’s not so heavy, not so crazy.