m.o.m

I just want to make you proud,

But all this pain swallows me whole.

Not one second of joy I've known,
Since the day I left dreams alone.

Your disappointment echoes through the phone,
The whispers of those who badmouthed us.
I remember each word so vividly,
Promised to you, I’d take revenge swiftly.

But what about me and my dream?
Should I let it all go, it seems?
I can’t find peace deep within,
I can’t be myself, trapped in sin.

You bought me my first piano,
When you weren’t around to show.
I wrote myself the fairest tales,
A letter to be the best of males.

I traded my faith for recognition,
No matter how grand, it’s a mission.
I can’t feel content deep inside,
A hole in my heart, I can't hide.

But what about me and my dream?
Should I give it all up, it seems?
I can’t find peace deep within,
I can’t be myself, this battle I win.