stand still

I pray God for me to get out of
This urge to swallow you whole.
I have settled with the purpose I made,
I have accepted that I've never meant to be loved.

But right now, right here,
Can I just have one first happiness?
Can I just feel like I'm loved for one?
Can I just let my tears shed on your shoulder?

I've come so far to go back,
To the innocent me,
To the dignity me,
To the happy me.

I beg you, my hero,
Tonight, for one,
Make me satisfy like never,
Make me your slave,
Make me your only tender.

Then do me a favor,
To stand still,
And let me blow your brains out
Before anyone knows about
This weak me,
This destructive me,
This gentle me.