do I long to be loved, or wish for revenge

 

You dressed like a quiet tree in the jungle 

You spoke so softly, no air between us,
Seven months went by, our hearts no longer lost.
I was too wrapped in pretending I don’t mind,
So I turned away, leaving us behind.

My heart broke watching you with her,
I thought I could play the villain, but no, it’s a blur.
You never wished to see the chaos in my day,
So I let my dreams drift to a darker way.

Let your thoughts settle in joy, not strife,
Think of me as a more beautiful mine.

You know, bae, I’ve always hated me this way,
Wishing I could let it all just slip away.
I wish I could post those pictures, bold and bright,
Just for one day, to not be lost in the fight.

To feel the freedom of not being bound,
To not let this pain keep me on the ground.
If only for a moment, I could breathe and be,
Free from this weight, and finally just see me.

Do I long to be loved, or wish for revenge,

For you to regret, and my heart to avenge?

Making all the men feel the weight of my loss,

Do you know that rage can burn brighter than love’s gloss?