destined to walk alone in pain

I pray to God, if kindness lies,

To keep my soul till next life’s skies.

This aching heart, this wounded plea,

Grant mercy now, oh set me free.

The burden comes and fades away,

But love’s desire will always stay.
I seek no vengeance, only grace,
To confess the tears I can’t erase.

Hug me close and speak so true,
That you’re here, not just to use.
That you love me, heart and soul,
And with me, you will grow old.

Bite my ear, entwine your hand,
Show me warmth I’d long demand.
A man I've yearned for, all this time,
To feel his touch, to feel divine.

I’ve forgotten kisses soft and sweet,
The woman’s warmth beneath my feet.
I came with nothing left to gain,
Destined to walk alone in pain.

I knew the more I yearned and prayed,
The more I’d be denied, betrayed.
But, God, how long must I endure?
How long this ache, how long the cure?

My heavy soul, so full of strife,
Wandering lost throughout my life.
Maybe I’ll give myself a chance,
To find the me beneath this trance.

If seven months should pass me by,
And still I weep, still wonder why,
Would you then weep with me, too?
Or turn away, your love untrue?

Would you cry for me, my dear?
Or just walk on, without a tear?
Forever gone, forever cold,
The aching heart, the shattered soul.

Inside, inside, the child remains,
Her heart still breaking, filled with pains.
Why did you break her when she bled?
Why leave her cold and full of dread?

Why let the stranger steal your place?
Why vanish without a trace?
Why did you?

With rage and anger buried deep,
I pray for peace, for your sweet sleep.
Find the light you’ve always sought,
And live the dream that love has wrought.

Let me hear alone, my spirit bare,
With empty eyes and silent air,
A soul that once was full of light,
Now fading in the endless night.