“I already saw the end. The scene of doomsday”.

Tell me

What is the ultimate pain?

Show me it

I want to see it

Clearly

I was not shown a single drop of love, even from myself.

“Did anyone ever want me? What is the reason for living? If nobody calls you out, no one wants me.”

I don't care about anything at this point.

What I am playing is the ultimate game of fate, and Nihilism. Because what’s the point anyway?

“I already saw the end. The scene of doomsday”. I, the ultimate Nihilist, who never experienced a tiny drop of love in my life. And for the last game in my life, the perfect suicide, I wanted that guy to kill me.’

Seems like in the world there is one fictional character whom I truly love.

But he doesn't exist

face it

he doesn't exist

his voice

his voice

drop from heaven

from heaven

heaven

in the end

no one will know the full me

no one in this world

no one

but you