why cinema matters to me so much?

I was lucky enough to be grew up in a artistic environment. 

No, actually, I was putting myself in situations where I had to learn so much about art and explore the meaning of art. 

I started with Serious Literature when I was 14, studying in schools and I remembered my first essay ever was to answer the questions: "What makes poems, poems?". I didn't remember what I was writing on those papers, definitely was suck. However, the question stuck in my mind until today when I am 20. 

Cinema came as my savior during my darkest hours when I was 17 years old. I was locked into my house and forced myself to study. Cinema was an escapism from reality, cinema created my imagination, cinema told me there were many things outside waiting for me and cinema helped me to experience many lives that I do not know that exist, reminded me that the pain I have been suffering is universal. 

Shutter Island was my first Scorsese's movie. I don't remember everything happened. But what I do remember, was those creepy faces from that madhouse, the vivid dream from protagonist and the many questions that left unanswered. 

Later on, I discovered many more of masterpieces from Sir Martin, Silence, Gangs of New York, Taxi Driver, Killer of The Flower Moon, etcetera. I was convinced by his storytelling, moved by every scenes and subconsciously defined for myself what is the real cinema. 

I felt terribly sad when I was reading those confessions of Scorsese on The New York Times

Cinema might will no longer has the room for the majority of people. However, I believe my love for cinema and real art will stay until I die.