our beautiful tragic s

 

Nothing left but desire in your eyes,

Whenever you get tipsy, I see it.
I made the biggest mistake of my life,
Yet somehow, I’ve still enjoyed it all.

As you gaze into my frightened eyes,
You never knew how panicked I felt.
You didn’t believe I tried to protect
What I’ve held close my whole damn life.

Everything unfolds just as I planned,
But why does it feel so damn sad?
Did I know you’d vanish by dawn?
Or would I fade, too, by morning’s light?

Why treat this like it’s all so easy?
When bodies and souls blend so crazy,
When my blood and tears stain the sheets,
And we whisper love into each other’s ears.

Let me enjoy this fleeting moment now,
Your fingers trace every one of my flaws.
Can you hear my voice beneath the fear?
Comfort me before your beauty consumes.

Touch me as if I’m all you need,
Kiss my shoulder, my fragile neck.
I kiss every piece of you tonight,
My lipstick and tears mark your body.

I know I’ve placed my faith in lies,
But tonight, let me be your slave.
Let me surrender to your hungry touch,
And be yours, if only for one night.

The morning comes, and I wake alone,
Before sunrise, just to glimpse your face.
Even your inner child tells me to stay,
But I know, you want to use me whole.

Kiss me deeply, kiss my very soul,
Pour your lust, anger, and rage on me.
And leave me just as I knew you would,
Too scared to own up, and blaming me.

Your childish ways disgust me deeply,
A painful reminder of my broken trust.
I leave a kiss on your cheek, goodbye,
My first and most beautiful mistake.

Tell me one last time that you love me,
Even though I knew it was all lies.
Don’t worry or regret today, my love,
It was just the game I had planned.

I used you to say goodbye to youth,
To welcome the demon that lives within.
At least I loved the man I craved,
In our beautiful, tragic, tangled sex.