i'm God favorite lonely girl

Growing up feeling you always having this loose connection with your friends and family

I always feel like I'm not enough

Experienced 3 lonely birthdays with no calls from friends and family

I honestly jealous with those girls who has a well-rounded relationships with boyfriends, parents and friends since at this point I literally have nothing. 

Being highly independent without talking to anyone for over a year

I hate to admit the fact that I'm really hard to be friends with anyone since I think I'm too odd or my opinions and view on life is so much different than they do. 

There are many people out there who also like me, but I think the conflict is so much heavier once you are a female

But I have God 

I isolated myself and force myself to focus on my work and my work only

Because I know no one is going to help me at the end of the day

But you know me God

God sent love during my darkest hours

I know you suffer besides me

I know you are here with me

I know there is a future of me that all these pain is going to end